crazy week
man its been one hell of a week. everyone had one moment of being pissed or something. i broke down in taekwondo class cos this plume belt guy smashed my leg where i crashed on on tuesday. stupid grandstand. i cant seem to do anything right. to top it all off, i have this sneaky feeling i wont be able to do anything by myself without my mom being there like a mother hen. it seems to me that al the trips im going for overseas for NYAA or wad teh hell, she goes on 'can we come too?' im never going to be able to go on a holiday ON MY OWN. sheesh. really annoying. you watch movies like the beach or .. wat that movie?? oh well all sorts. and uve got these kids going off on their own. and shes once suggested' go backpacking across australia' probably next time i ask she'll be like, hey can we come? NO.
for once let me do what i want. ive been one hell of a chld so far. i never gave teenage rebellion problems so why cant i hang out on my own???? for hte first time i managed to escape on saturday outof the HOUSE and hung about orchard.. wasting darcy's studying time.. :P sorri.. but i felt damn FREE. then she called and was like. 'where are you?" and im like.. sigh.. orchard. looking at math. i was. looking at math functions questions tho i noe it doesnt help much. sigh. math sucks. life kinda sucks. specially sunday. everything went WRONG. now i dont feel any better. still screwed up life as ever. and the damn blog publishing doesnt seem to be working properly. definitely not my day, week, month.. yEAR. ah wad the hell. jc life is hell new and screwed up adn i feel like a 6yr old trapped in a freaking body of a 16.. soon to be 17.. year old. sucks to the core and nothing seem to be helping. saw this powerpoint slide my mom sent me from mtv, never seen before footage. about the 911 crash and infront of that pic there are these homeless, hiv positive hungry adn lonely ppl and the data for how many have died because of that compared to the 911. so sad. yet so true. and annoying. the fact they can spend so much time on the bloody event that is ONCE in a life time but something on going they cant be bothered. the logic of human kind. NO LOGIC what so ever. i am so screwed for everything. i see the walls around me *crumbling* adn *falling to bits and pieces* visualise* those movies where someone blows up abuilding and slow motion*- crumble crumble fall fall drop drop adn SPLAT. ahh well.
for once let me do what i want. ive been one hell of a chld so far. i never gave teenage rebellion problems so why cant i hang out on my own???? for hte first time i managed to escape on saturday outof the HOUSE and hung about orchard.. wasting darcy's studying time.. :P sorri.. but i felt damn FREE. then she called and was like. 'where are you?" and im like.. sigh.. orchard. looking at math. i was. looking at math functions questions tho i noe it doesnt help much. sigh. math sucks. life kinda sucks. specially sunday. everything went WRONG. now i dont feel any better. still screwed up life as ever. and the damn blog publishing doesnt seem to be working properly. definitely not my day, week, month.. yEAR. ah wad the hell. jc life is hell new and screwed up adn i feel like a 6yr old trapped in a freaking body of a 16.. soon to be 17.. year old. sucks to the core and nothing seem to be helping. saw this powerpoint slide my mom sent me from mtv, never seen before footage. about the 911 crash and infront of that pic there are these homeless, hiv positive hungry adn lonely ppl and the data for how many have died because of that compared to the 911. so sad. yet so true. and annoying. the fact they can spend so much time on the bloody event that is ONCE in a life time but something on going they cant be bothered. the logic of human kind. NO LOGIC what so ever. i am so screwed for everything. i see the walls around me *crumbling* adn *falling to bits and pieces* visualise* those movies where someone blows up abuilding and slow motion*- crumble crumble fall fall drop drop adn SPLAT. ahh well.
wrenched out from douGH at 9:28 pm
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